UTAH KAMBO GIVE AND RECIEVE
The tenderness of life to give and receive in service of others in Kambo and knowing self care
The past few weeks I have been in deep prayer for many suffering in my direct family, for clients, for Las Vegas, Puerto Rico, and all the fires & flooding. I am blessed. My loved ones are safe. Still, I don’t have it all worked out. Do we ever have our lives totally figured out and on point? I often wonder if I am the only person out there flying by the seat of my pants and usually tending to myself last.
I have my own circumstances. Some would not know that exactly because I often keep a pretty low profile in terms of my needs and asking for help. Still, I experience stress, worries, sadness, concerns and doubts. I know this makes me very human in general. I know that I am in a human experience and learning to navigate the ways of life just like everyone else. What’s is real is the love and support surrounding me. I know I am not alone. I am incredibly blessed and my life is enriched beyond measure to serve kambo Park City, kambo Salt Lake City and kambo Utah as well as facilitate and train as a master kambo practitioner in my kambo training program.
I believe we are all just little children on the playground. We are like little sweet kiddos in adult bodies. I believe in general we all want to play and we all desire love and acceptance. For me, life is precious just as children are innocent and tender. I often think about how tender it is when people come to work with me in various shamanic processes and what we get down to is something really deep they experienced as a child and needed support processing and letting go.
In my life, my children, Jack and Zella, are my greatest teachers. I love my sweet son Jack. I call him 'my heart attack' as I grew up practically being his parent. I made all the mistakes one makes including dating the wrong men a lot as a single mother. This kiddo has been through all my heartaches and he's been my deepest heart learning. Zella is the easiest child I could have ever wanted. She is the exact opposite of Jack which is really cool. They are entirely different and they are both really close and have a special bond of their own. Zella is like the glue between me and everyone else in my family. She brings people together and she's our 'happy girl'. In fact, 'happy' was her first word. I will never forget that day and the moment I heard her voice saying, "Happy." I was standing in the kitchen talking on the phone and I could feel her tugging at my leg. She was bouncing up and down and looking at me with these great big hazel eyes.
She was in just a diaper looking at me with delight and curiosity as she continued to sound out the word 'happy' until she got it over and over and the sounds flowed. Once she got the sounds and the word it was like everything connected and we were there in the kitchen of our South Jordan Utah home chanting, "Happy." over and over and over we went. I will always be so grateful for those days of being able to be home with her to witness her growth and her life and for that day and of course... for cell phones. I recorded this sweet moment and listen to it often.
Being a mother gives me so much joy. When I was around 12 years old I told my parents that for sure I wanted 13 kids. Can you believe that? I know. Here I am with two and they've both come different relationships nearly 12 years apart. I didn't exactly grow up thinking I'd be divorce, single parenting, dating in my young twenties, sorting out motherhood, my rent, a car payment, groceries and whatever else to just get by for myself. Still, we figure it out. The gift of a child causes something within our souls and we grow beyond what we could imagine. I am so grateful for both of my children. I love you Jack; more than you might possibly know. I love you sweet Zella Monroe. Thank you for healing the wounds so many of us carried.
I wouldn't change a thing about either of my children. They teach me about peace and they let go of upsets quickly. Children don’t live in the past. So today, I ask for forgiveness and for you to forgive yourself. Please express and show more love. Let’s be bold, courageous, vulnerable and gentle.
It’s okay to fail, mess it all up, or even better to shine!
Peace, Love and More Kambo Utah
Master Kambo Practitioner Training
As a native of Salt Lake City, Utah I grew up in a family well versed in the concepts of health and well being as a way of life.